Writings - Poetry - 2011

For what purpose is this visage
This charade of a vase where I am contained
This, a vessel of hope
I might pour into the glass...
A goblet of possibilities that holds my image beneath my name.

This is a reflective cache of my own resolve
And to believe I could see it all
Would be fallacy against my better judgments.
Though not withstanding within would be my fall,
I could give in to less bountiful patience.

In a fall like a feather, oh so slowly adrift
I could mislead myself,
Delude myself
That I with it,
Could be lost on this current, oh so swift
Yet...
Let loose like a cannonball through all I resist.
Though indeed I would fly for those few moments,
To land in gardens of serenity would be an unlikely event.

These, the infinite little truths
Like mirror cracks, they skew such views.
Only the eyes and mind of my review
See through into the surface of this pool
With scrutiny against embellishments my desire might use.
Might I take recourse and force the path to choose.
No...
I must refuse...
I must make earnest attempts to find the clues
Not circumfuse my thoughts with fanciful ruse.

And to be on such an enlightened path?
For glory or self preservation I might laugh,
But for the growth of answers,
Where there are none to be had,
I may take a wander into risks of chance.
A gamble non-the-less..
A gamble I might regret
Or a venture I might beget, for betterment?
For betterment...
A convincing argument, but with bias intent.
How does one make choice, hence, without suspense.

But I too might lie, unto myself
Unto the reason and logic I've felt
What is this logic?
Applied as if dealt...
All cards on the table without much else.
No definition to the rules applied
A game of cards?
A house of cards?
A pursuit of the percent of the chance I perchance might find?
All these thoughts circle my mind.
All these thoughts do lead me blind.
And leave me betwixt notions, sublime, surreal and undefined.

This is my ponderance.
A lake of doubt or conviction,
On the back of resounding conflict
I find my discretion.