Writings - Poetry - 2009

The torrent that was... my emotion
Raged and wore to the edge of devotion
My being wrought with such confusion
For conclusion in fated disillusion

My soul burdened by the hidden truths
I walked the path that I was led

Could it be I saw the end?
Years before the beginning came.
To ascend into light was my hope, my friend
But in darkness I was drowned again

Could it be there is a strength
Far greater than which I may gain
This pull on my spirit
Senses I may near it
But I may never hold it for my own

Could it be I saw the birth
Of life and love stronger than I
To much did I rest assured
That faith was enough to get me by
Only in madness did I try
To ever guess the course this path lead me down.
To believe in the ghost of what I found
To achieve the life which I have now

Such questions fill me with sorrow
Yet filled me with joy

I am amazed I came this far
Through this pain and suffrage.
I walked the thin line of hate and love
Betrayed myself to rise above
And found my skin wrapped on a different man

He remembers so much love.
It glowed for what it was worth.
And it was worth so much then.
Those bittersweet moments, strewn like dying fireflies
I cried for them.
In their joy and sorrow.
There longing for tomorrow had ceased.
My want for anything with them.

Oh to be indifferent
I begged myself to see such light.
to see the life bloom in a way unanticipated.